Gavin Degraw Concert!

On December 1st, 2008 My friend Christie invited me and our friend Martha to the Gavin Degraw concert in Spartanburg, SC. She had Three free tickets so we took the opportunity. A free concert was hard to pass up.We got lost trying to find the memorial place that the concert was going to be held but we eventually found it. After we found the place, we went out to get something to eat at McCalister's deli and then we went back. We had 2nd row and was able to take close up pictures. My favorite song of Gavin's is "Chariot." He did an amazing job along with the other guys that sung on stage before him. Matt Nathanson and We The Kings were all there. They did a great job as well. Matt Nathanson is hillarious and he often told jokes. We The Kings are a band from Florida. They named their band after their high school. My favorite song of theirs is "check yes Juliet." But they all did an amazing job and we had a load of fun.

After the concert was over with, we met up with some friends that we didn't even know went to the concert. Well one of the girls in that group knows everything about Gavin Degraw and knew exactly where he would be coming out of the building to leave. We went outside the back of the building waiting in the freezing cold but it was all worth it because we actually got to meet Gavin. He signed our tickets and we took pictures with him. It was an amazing experiance considering that I have never met anyone famous before.

The only thing about the concert that we didn't like is that it didn't seem to last long enough. We wanted more songs but he had to go catch his flight to go to TX.

It's in the Valley's I grow

It's in The Valleys I grow

It's In The Valleys I Grow.
Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe.
It's then I have to remember
That it's in the valleys I grow.

If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But, it's in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.

My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross.
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know,
The mountain tops are glorious
But, it's in the valleys I grow!

REMEMBER...
The shortest distance between a problem and a solution
is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything!

October is Breast Cancer awareness month[ In loving Memory of My aunt JoAnne Hastings]

That Wasn't Me

This is a song that I wrote about a past relationship that turned into a complete disaster within three months. I knew him for seven years so he wasnt a stranger to me. We actually didn't see each other until 2 years after high school at Central Carolina when we were taking a medical course together. I regret the relationship so bad that it literally makes me sick. I look back and I can't see why I fell so hard for a guy that didn't have any morals and that really didnt meet my standards.

I was raised in the church where I knew right from wrong but when he came along, he corrupted me to do things that I never wanted to do. It nearly distroyed me because it was like I didn't know who I was anymore.

But now that I have changed my life around for the better once again, I realize that I deserve so much better than that. Nobody at my age especially should have to go through that. And OMG for those people who get married 21 years and younger... ARE YALL SERIOUS? I don't want to get married until I am like 28 or 29 but then again, it still may not happen that soon. Yall are still young and have a life to live... don't waste it on a relationship that most likely won't last. Live your life, learn new things, smile a lot, take lots of pictures, and most of all have fun (in the right way). Partying your life away won't get you much in life. My ex b/f did that and ended up dropping out of college just to "live it up." Such a waste!!

But I hope that this makes sense because this really did happen.

So if I can get a response please email me @ either sdarkangl06@aol.com

or hsmith4@mycctc.cctech.edu .

Thanks!!

That wasn't me

written by: Heather smith

9/23/2008

It was the day that I turned 20

Something just didn't feel quite right

But I was looking forward to being with you that night

I had your picture starring at me when I woke up

But I was feeling hurt

I knew that something was wrong

I felt it for so long

Then later you called and said you would be over

in just a while

A while never came

you put your trust at shame

~~~~~~~~~~~

[chorus]

Baby, I was counting on you to be there

I knew you were out somewhere

partying your life away

I stayed up all night

hoping you were alright

and even bowed my head to pray

But didn't think God would hear me

Because of all the mistakes with you I made

Man, I was so ashamed

That wasn't me

~~~~~~~~~

Two days later you stabbed me in the heart

my life then fell apart

Something aweful, something hard

My life was forever changed

And we were afraid that I was with your child

I was afraid and alone

and you were already gone

I went up in front of the congregation

and repented for my sins

I just wanted this shame to end

~~~~~~~~~~

[chorus]

Baby, I was counting on you to be there

I knew you were out somewhere

partying your life away

I stayed up all night

hoping that you were alright

and even bowed my head to pray

But I didn't think God would hear me

because of all the mistakes with you I made

Man, I was so ashamed

That wasn't me

~~~~~~~~~~

5 Months later I still feel the pain

Just like the pouring rain

I regret so much of what I've done

I regret loving you

Because you were one of the few

who couldn't stay true

My grey skies are slowly turning blue

as my thoughts wander away from you

Someday my life will shine

and your name will not enter my mind

~~~~~~~~~~~~

[chorus]

Baby, I just wanted you to be there

I knew you were out somewhere

partying your life away

I stayed up all night

hoping you were alright

and I even bowed my head to pray

But I didn't think God would hear me

Because of all the mistakes with you I made

Man, I was so ashamed

That wasn't me

~~~~~~~~~~~~

You are so far gone now

I hope you're doing fine now

and wasting your life away

I don't waste my time to pray

because you weren't true enough to stay

It was all a mistake

Ya, Im doing fine now

Im living my life right now

I started a new beginning

with the hurt finally ending

What do you think about that

You're just a memory

~~~~~~~~~~

[chorus]

Baby I just wanted you to be there

I knew you were out somewhere

partying your life away

I stayed up all night

hoping that you were alright

But, now I know God hears me

when I bow my head to pray

because I repented for all the mistakes with you I made

Man, I was so ashamed

That just wasn't me

No, that wasn't me

My Cousins Jessica and Stephany

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Isn't She Lucky

Three weeks ago this kitten was on the verge of death. It was a beautiful Sunday morning when I had went to church, only to come home after visiting a cousin to find my poor kitten lying in a box in my room with no strength to get up or to "meow." Before I left to go to church I noticed that my kitten wasn't interacting with any of the others and it would walk a certain distance then ball up and go to sleep. I knew it wasn't normal.

The mother wasn't feeding her kittens on a regular basis and this kitten needed nutrients to gain it's strength back. So I told my mom to fix me some warm milk and to bring me a straw hoping that I could get my poor little kitten nursed back to health. I fed it some milk, praying to God, "Please don't take this kitten!!!" So after I fed it I layed it back down to rest and within a few hours she had purked up and was on her feet, not quite ready to play. After the kitten woke up, I fed it a little bit of soft meat and then the kitten was fine. I started buying her some friskey's food in a can and she, along with her other siblings enjoys it.

I named my kitten Lucky because she was Lucky to have me there to nurse her back to health. This kitten is the weakest one so Im keeping her inside the house until she gets big enough to be able to survive on her own.

[Her face is a little dirty because when I feed her can food she dives her face into the food]

My Lucky Star

My Lucky Star

written by: Heather Smith

You look at me

I smile because you make me so happy

What did you do

to make me fall in love with you

You say that I make you smile

Sometimes I wonder how

I hope this lasts longer than just a Little while

I want to hold your hand

and you can be my best friend

You walk with me,

I tremble because you have that affect on me

Honey, you're everything

that I have been waiting for

maybe I am walking through and open door

Chorus: You're the reason that I count all myLucky stars

Your're the only one who hasn't made the effort to break my heart

I love you

Oh, I really do

My Lucky Star

You talk to me

I laugh because you are so funny

I lie in bed

start laughing about some things we've said

Baby, You are beautiful

You're all I think about

I just want to shout it all out loud

Chorus: You're the reason that I count all myLucky stars

Your're the only one who hasn't made the effort to break my heart

I love you

Oh, I really do

My Lucky Star

You sit with me

Nervous is all you know to be

Baby, it's alright

I know exactly what it's like

but it's just me so you don't have to be

Chorus: You're the reason that I count all myLucky stars

You're the only one who hasn't made the effort to break my heart

I love you

Oh, I really doMy Lucky Star

My Lucky Star

Yes you really are,

You're my lucky star!

Goodbye lost love

There once was a time

when I was in love with you

you built me up

you tore me down

How was I so dumb to think it was true

You said things that meant so much to me

you said you loved me

you said you would always be there

How was I so dumb to thinkthat you actually did care

One night you danced with me

we cuddled and you held me tight

you kissed me and everything else was out of sight

For three months you were all I could see

sometimes you said things that hurt me

I couldn't understand why I wasn't everything you wanted me to be

I did things only b/c you pressured me

And still I wasn't good enough

You ripped me apart

And all I needed was your love

you said you loved me but you never did from the start

You left me alone to bury the pain

I went through so much thatI felt I was going insane

I held your jacket everynight before I went to sleep

Only to wake up and weep

Never did I think it would end

Because of my love for you

and I kept hoping that

you would still want me again one day too

But then I realized that you

were never coming back

and that you weren't worth my time

Because you were slack

and not worthy of being mine

So don't call me

I don't want to hear your voice

Because you destroyed my love for you

and my dear you have to live with that choice

One day you will regret it so much more

Don't even know why I cared so much for

Pictures of Me

RACISM disgusts me

Im at a point in my life where everything is so confusing. I sit back and worry about the least little thing when I know that I shouldn't have all along. I worry about what people think of me, I worry about the next day, I worry about my family, I worry about my friends (if you want to call them that), and I just worry about stupid stuff. I am at the point now to where I just want to give up because I am tired of trying to grasp onto things and onto people who I can't keep.
Im sick and tired of people lying to me. EVERYBODY lies to me about something, no matter how little or how small, or how important or how unimportant it is. Im tired of people pretending with me. Why can't everyone just be honest? I have been lied to so many times that I don't trust anyone. I have been lied to by family, friends, and boyfriends. People make promises to me that they can't keep. People tell me things that I want to hear, not things that I need to hear. Im begining to let go gradually. IM beginning to not even care anymore. Sometimes I just want to go on a loooonnnnnnnngggggggg vacation and get away from everybody here. Even if I did leave, nobody would even care if I came back or not.
Another thing that I am so sick and tired of is the fact that there are so many racist people here. I have been dealing with racist issues since I was 12 years old and I have had it with people down here. I am tired of people looking down on my family just because of my step dad being black. Everyone down here acts like black people are animals or something!!! Black people are just like everyone else. They have hearts, they have feelings and they bleed red too... so what gives you the right to look down on a black person? They are human just like evryone else. Just remember this: God is no respector of persons.
Tonight there was this strange guy messaging me and I knew that he was a loser but I chatted with him to see what he was about.... well he was all cool with me until I told him about my family and then he blocks me because he is a racist. Look, im tired of people doing that to me!!! Not that I wanted to talk to him because I dont' want a relationship with anyone right now. I just can't feel the same way about someone else like I do about Grant. But it's the fact that guys always throw that up my face and it hurts. My ex boyfriends have broken up with me because of the way their families are and it's not even my fault. My mom married him because she loves him and he is good to us. That is the most important thing. My family is even like that... won't even come around us because of them being racist. I mean we argue, we fight and that is to be expected in families because EVERYONE goes through that at some point. Me and my parents have been in some aweful arguements to where I almost flipped one time but that is besides the point. The point is that we are family and blood is thicker than water and My family will always be there for me when my friends forget about me. My family will NEVER forget about me. When I need a shoulder or if I need help MY FAMILY will always be there. Friends come and go just like the wind. I have only had a few friends that stuck by me through high school and I only have maybe one friend now who I can tell anything to. I grew up with her and I went all through school with her and she is my best friend. We may not hang out but I still consider her a great friend. I have a few people from church that I can talk to and I love them to death just for being there... and I consider them family.
Racism is why when I get my career started and I pay off all of my bills, I am moving far away from the south so that I won'thave to put up with all of this. It's not running away, but it's called having a better life. there has to be a better life out there somewhere because it sure isn't here. People down here need to grow up and stop living in the past.

As These Roses Die

As these roses die
so will your love for me
I wished I knew why
I get attached so easily

I shall go find a spot
to bury these
Love is never worth the shot
especially when it comes to me

Oops, one petal has fell
thats one day of separation
before you came, i was doing so well
but you fulfilled my desperation

As I kneel in the garden to pray
God, there is so much you need to know
There is so much I need to say
But first I must ask, why do I care about my bo

Why do I have to be a soldier
that always fights for love
why do I have to care
I never recieve love in return
noone is ever there

God, take this pain
just take it away
I want to melt in the rain
Never return, not even for a day
As these roses die
so will his love for me
I wished I knew why
I get attached so easily